What Happened to My Summer?

Well, it has been a long time since I posted here. There has been so much going on in life that I really haven't thought about the blog.

My summer didn't go as planned. I didn't get my garden ready for fall planting, I didn't water my Topsy Turvy so we did not have home grown tomatoes this year, we didn't complete all of the homeschool days I had scheduled.... do I need to go on? No, I'm sure you got the picture.

To be honest I had a life changer this summer. After a nine month journey, my new journey has begun. You see, last November I started feeling worn down. I chalked it up as stress from the end of the semester of college and holidays. When college started back up in January I still felt tired. I had blood work done and my vitamin D and iron was low. I thought my problem would be solved after a couple months of vitamins and iron pills.

As the semester went on my body began to hurt for no apparent reason and I just couldn't get enough sleep to feel rested. I had a difficult time getting thru the semester but I pushed and made it. I figured I would feel better once school was over and my son's homeschool went part time for the summer. Nope, I only got worse.

I went back to the doctor and she ran more tests. I tested positive for autoimmune disease so she sent me to a rheumatologist. My primary doctor was thinking maybe I had lupus. Anyway, the rheumatologist did more tests.

The positive ANA test turned out to be a false positive (PRAISE GOD!) but I have fibromyalgia. I think I have been going thru the stages of grieving on a small scale. Life as I know it is over and I will have to learn how to live with a 'new body'. Hhhmmm, not the body I was wishing for. I really would have liked one that weighed a little less and was ready to climb mountains.

I am learning how far I can push myself and what sets off the pain. I am still worn down after ten hours of uninterrupted sleep at night. I'm not sure when I will clean out my garden boxes, finish cleaning out my garage, take a much needed vacation, and everything else I have been trying to get to for the past year. Also, I will not be going back to college in the near future. I have energy for about five hours a day and I need that for DJs homeschooling and my husband.

There is more I would like to share, but not at this time. I really need to process everything first, but I do want to get back to blogging. It is something that I truly enjoy and now that I know what is going on with me I feel like I can think a little more clearly.

Now you know what happened to my summer.